Hi blog friends!
I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update you all. Now that I have a ttc Facebook page and my Youtube channel, I have been updating there more reguarly. So my apologies for neglecting you all. As you can see from my title of this post, this cycle was a BFN!!!! Deep down I knew it would be, but I was holding onto that little ounce of hope that this would be our miracle baby. AF had decided to arrive the day before my beta so I knew it was over. Stupid regular cycle! I had way more symptoms this go around so I was really thinking I was pregnant. But, my gutt knows best and it was right. Before we even began this IVF cycle my DH from the beginning said he ONLY agreed to doing this one cycle before we bought a house. So as the day of my beta got closer I started to really loose hope because I had no idea how I would convince him to do another cycle. I tried to not worry about it but it was hard because I knew our RE would be asking what our next plan would be.
Friday, March 18th was my beta. I had no idea how quick things could get started again. I knew what I wanted and the waiting for my nurse to call with my results was torture. She called around 2 PM apologized that it was negative and wanted to know if we wanted to proceed with another IVF cycle. My RE and I had discussed early when he converted the IVF to an IUI that he would like to try one more cycle with my eggs. I told her that I would need to talk to my husband and I would call her on Monday with an answer. I called my husband and after a very long conversation, and to my surprise, he said YES!!!! I was emotional and was over joyed with happiness. This BFN wasn't the end and we would have one more try. Even though I have 4 more IVF cycles through my insurance, due to the poor response this last time, my RE feels it's best that we try one more time and then re-evaluate doing Donor IVF or adoption. So this has got to be our miracle cycle. I'm so excited! Everything just keeps falling into place and 3rd time's a charm right?
So here is the plan:
Protocol: Lupron Stop Protocol
CD 19 (4/5) - Start 10 units of Lupron in AM until AF shows (approx about 9-10 days later)
CD 2 - Blood work and U/S to make sure everything looks good, if it does, start stims.
I will be using Gonal F and Menopur again, but no Ganilrelix because my system is being suppressed by the Lupron in the beginning instead. Not too sure how the last week of stims works with doing the suppression but we shall see soon enough.
CD 2 or 3 - Start stims for aprox 10-12 days.
ER/ET - Somewhere towards the end of April beginning of May for a February baby.
So hopefully this cycle makes it to ER! I don't want another IUI. I feel that in my situation they are a waste of time and its just a huge let down that I don't want to feel again. I'm praying this is our BFP! I keep saying in my head, "3rd times a charm"! I really believe this. God knows, he has a plan and we just have to trust in Him and pray that this is in his plan.
I'm just so thankful to have another chance. I think this BFN was much easier to handle because I knew we had more chances. With our first IVF and the BFN, we had no other chances. Our insurance only covered 1 cycle so that was it. We didn't have the money to do another cycle out-of-pocket. So this time in many ways is very different. I feel great besides being bloated still and very tired all the time. My food cravings have been out of control and I thought they would go away after the injections stopped and wore off, but not I still love my food. This is so unlike me for those of you who know me....I don't eat a lot. Having endo, I'm always nauseous and it's very hard to eat a full meal. So as much as I'm enjoying this, I don't want it to get to out of control and gain a bunch of weight.
So things are good overall! I'm headed home to SO CAL on Wed till Mon and I couldn't be more excited. We get home late Monday night and then Lupron starts the following day!:)
I will do an update when we get home on how my Lupron injections go. It's all like second nature now, haha!
I hope everyone is doing well. Congrats on all the new BFP's and for all the births this month! So exciting!
Thanks for all the well wishes and for thinking of me!
Talk to you all soon,
Lauren
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